An existential crisis awaits you. It’s not the first time you won’t be ready but still survive one. You always do…as if it weren’t up to you (hint! Hint!). This is what you will learn:
FINANCIAL FEAR You left “the security” of your last traditional job a year ago and have been trying to feed and shelter yourself: feeling guilty and unproductive for not OVERworking; questioning your decisions because there are less sign posts when you wander from the well-trodden path and oftentimes less support as not so many people are going your way. You will see, though, a dissonance between the stories you habitually tell yourself, and the situational facts, and that the solution is to be present enough to NOW (yes, ‘now’ used as a verb). In now, you’re ‘nowing’ and you’re ok. In the invented future realities, you’ve been eaten by sharks, so won’t swim out too far; blown off cliffs so won’t approach the edge and have lived on the streets and in the mad house, so hold yourself in foetal position mumbling in your mind, you insomniac! We only have the present – can only walk through the museum of our past, prohibited from touching, and the future is underwater, low visibility.
You will become aware you (still) put on fear and wear anxiety fundamentally out of:
A scarcity mentality – not imagining yourself as a person with choices (this podcast How to deal with Stress and Scarcity Mindset with Michael Neil will speak directly to you). The fear of not having enough…of being dependant on others because they could fail you. Now though…your now is what you allow it to be and that is a supportive environment. You have more than enough when you remember to be grateful for what you have.
You have consciousness. This gives us the ability to create our realities.
Recent revelations began with this video which suggests that the real cause we’re afraid of not having money is that we won’t be able to afford the things that distract us from looking inwards at what causes a need to escape – unresolved emotions. Your crisis will be triggered by being back at home, back in your adolescent-you space and reminded of a time you felt trapped. Liberating opportunities to pay attention and recognise you are no longer that person.
What do you do when you’ve done everything you can come up with to do and…nothing? Of course, your organic farming experience and the knowledge gained was something, but let’s ignore that! Let’s follow these neural pathways etched in dopamine (the comfort drug) to whatever isn’t working: our bodies dissolve and we are gone. Swallowed down by the universe! Momentary pain relievers for its reoccurring headaches.
How to be born into slavery, this decision made for me, that I am to sell my time to “earn money”? Great advice “stop being a victim”! Why didn’t I think to just stop?!
Binge-watched-TED-talks later, you’ll be inspired to create your own meaning in life (especially after this video comparing cosmic nihilism in Rick and Morty and existential nihilism in Bojack Horseman gave you hope). You’ll simplify, making your health priority, focusing on stress reduction. You’ll:
1. Stop trying so hard because flexibility allows you to know what you want but be open to the different ways your goals can be achieved, rather than being stubbornly steeped in the frustrations associated with fighting for the one way you’ve imagined it happening.
2. Find ways of creating stress free productivity by getting your to-do list out of your head, writing it down so you’re not mentally ruminating.
Bothered that none of this seems intuitive because Capitalism has created an unnatural state that is far removed from a settled mind, you’ve always wanted a formula. Here it is: live in the now. Schedule times to revaluate what you want and how to get it while being flexible.
You’ll not live on vegan bread alone, but on every alarm that comes from your cell phone.
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